Quotes and sleep-deprivation

C.S. Lewis said, among some other very profound and pithy things, "There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, 'Thy will be done,' and those to whom God says, 'All right, then, have it your way." Of course, I would say there's a third kind of person; someone who says to God "All right, then, if you must, have it your way." How to become someone who doesn't resign herself to God's will, as if it's something to be endured through gritted teeth, but someone who embraces God's will, even when it must be embraced through gritted teeth? The work of a life of practiced letting go, I suppose, to get to that one.

But on less profound topics... I have been very, very tired lately. Which is probably in some way correlated to my lack of sleep. Well, that's not true - I have slept around 6 hours each night for the last many nights in a row. But I should sleep more like 8 hours. It's partly that I have a new toy at home - the internet - so I can browse. There's not much I enjoy looking at, and yet I keep looking for hours after I've exhausted the search (and myself). Reminds me of another Lewis quote: "I sometimes wonder whether all pleasures are not substitutes for joy."

I am going to go and attempt to embrace the joy of sleep (The Lord gives rest to those he loves, right?!). After I attempt to clean my kitchen - or at least bring a semblance of order to it. We had small group tonight (high school girls) and had a couple of birthdays to celebrate. Consequently my kitchen is in even worse shape than my mind & body! But my soul is doing well :) I have included a picture of some of the girls - because I know you're mostly here to look at the pictures anyway.

Thank you for praying that I would learn balance in life - rest, work, play. More to say about Urbana plans, but not tonight. Perhaps tomorrow.

Lucy