THIS is what it looks like outside right now. Grrrrr. I am NOT happy with snow in April. Not that this is a first, or that I didn't expect it - but still not happy. My only consolation is that this is the last of it. I can hope, anyway. Next week it's supposed to get up to 60. I have to say, I've been emotional lately - not my favorite state to be in. I think I'm overwhelmed with all the changes and not getting as much sleep as I need. And living in two worlds is hard - the driving back and forth and trying to keep up "extra" relationships (just lots of relationships), build new friendships, etc. while still maintaining my world here in Madison... it's just too much. I'm ready to be done, even though I'm scared to leave everyone and everything here - it's always an identity challenge for me every time I move. Here in Madison I know who I am and I have a whole community - multiple communities - of people who know me. I have identity and purpose. In Illinois I have to start over again - except this time I'm throwing in a whole new variable! I don't even get to keep my name this time - and instead of getting to choose all my new communities (like church, friendships, etc.), I inherit of a lot of Dan's world. As we say in cross-cultural training - "it's not good or bad, it's just different". So my brain and my emotions are churning a lot these days, and especially these nights - I keep waking up in the middle of the night or early in the morning with my mind racing. Oh, and I've noticed that I wake up often with a sore jaw, I think because I clench my teeth in my sleep. Anway, all very exciting, but I'm just ready to jump - tired of standing on the edge and looking over!